Dry Love

Love which came,
Love which left,
Seems like a love theft,
A dear love have left,

Now its dry,
Much after hearing the stabing goodbye,
I will always be waiting for you to come by,

All I know,
That is a lie.... a dry truth...

Well, look at me an see,
Tell me what do you see,
Happiness in me already fled,
Look at me,
I am dry all in me....

Your love is dry,
Dry just like a dead goodbye,
There is nothing good about goodbye,
Go ahead, leave me to die...bye

A Thousand Different Ways

I am sitting here hugging on to my fears
Watching my cold dripping tears
Take me along with you, I am begging please
Time and memories is all I will ever miss

Just watching you smile
Makes good memories worth while
When life comes to a halting pile
A face with a broken smile

Who ever you have been
You are good at it
Bringing life to it
Bringing joy to it

Somehow painful to see me bleed
Sometimes chasing greed
Now fallen to my feet
My own pride and sorrow I meet

A thousand different ways
Many different days
How come to me.....its all same?

Riches

The world today
A place where money and power play
Bringing hard days and creating evil ways
Human control the world

Money makes the world turn
Money also causes people to crash and burn
Money is fun
Sometimes it bring trouble, its time to run

Money kills
Money also heals
Money brings goodness to some
To some, money is a weapon

People are driven by money
A few pieces of valuable paper
Valuable color papers
Sadly....these riches lay at our feet

God counts our deeds
The amount of people we meet
The amount of people.....we made them bleed
Making their lives our planted seed....grow.....

Nautical Twilight

As I look to the skies
The awesome color comforts my eyes
Well...its the Nautical Twilight
The orange purple so bright

I watched from a far
I saw you leaving
To somewhere far
Flying with your mighty wings

I only sailed in a boat
Wishing to catch up
All I could do is float
Watch you disappear into the Nautical Twilight

You went somewhere far.....
You will be fine......
I pray you will be fine....
I am sorry......

A Heavy Burden

Looking from the stars
Please tell me what do you see from a far
I see people carrying burdens
Heavy burdens till they burn into their backs

After being told and I looked up in the mirror
I sorry for being a burden to you
A boundary for you
A great burden to you

Now I am happy that you are free
Well, you don't have to worry about me
When the time come I will flee
In my memories, you will always be with me

Memories which are lock down tight
Memories which remain bright
Memories which I hug goodnight
Your face will be in my memory, still shining bright

Goodbye.......

Waiting

Waiting for a call which never comes,
Waiting for a message which never comes,
Words which contains no feelings,
Words which have no sound,

I was waiting,
I am hurting,
Weird.... I am still thinking,
My eyes stopped blinking,

Years of waiting,
My life finally stopped playing,
The wait that hurt,
The wait that brings thoughts and sadness

The wait that have ended....
No more waiting....

Ignored

I look for you,
I waited for you,
I miss you,
People could see me turn blue,

No, not because of flu,
But of the feeling of missing you,
Can't deny it, its true
I really miss you.

I am here standing at the hall way,
Waiting for you all day,
Thinking and planning of what to say,
When I approach you, you just walked away.

I get ignored everyday....
I guess it will remain this way....

Lonely

I lost....
I loose....
I stumble....
I fall......

I don't get it, why?
Why am I alone......
Why I can't call your phone.....
Its painful, like a broken bone....

What is love?
Love is free
Love flies like a dove
Love is not control....

Why can't I be where you are?
Are you really that far?
Far as in restricted?
Far as in unreachable?

Have you ever tried being robbed?
Robbed of something you treasured so dearly
You are still 18 years old, Its still early
The pain and grief which stabs you

Now I am pushed out
I can see your face, damn proud
There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go

You are missing in my heart.......

"Normally, humans kill with their mind"
- DixoN-

3 Emotions

Letting go a part of me
Its like a blade which cuts right through me
My heart cant stop bleeding
Cant believe the flashback that I am reading

I am going to miss you
All I have is faint memories
I guess I wont see you forever
Someday or may be never.....

Challenges come, I give in
Tough times come, I give in
Looking at the rubbish bin
Can't believe how much shit I am in

I can't bow to you
The image behind the song
The killer behind the creator
The force behind the weak

I stand on my ground
Look at you and frown
You brought hurt & pain
But I guess, what the heck do you gain?

Playing your own game
Polluting your own name
Trying to build your fame
Look in the mirror, how lame.....

I have beat you down the first time
Looking forward to the second time
Cant wait to hear the bell chime
Just the right time

Lost and lonely
Tired and hungry
Walking down....
Looking down.....

Confused by whats around
Scared and afraid to make a sound
Threats all around
My feet is fear bound

I am confused....
Sad, I am bruised
Angry, I am bruised
Confused, end of life.....

Dissapointments

Hate my life....
I wish to die
I wish to cry
I wish to remove the hurts and lies

Sometimes I wish to return to the skies
Say my final goodbye
Believe that my life is all a lie....
Wishing I would just give in and die

Promise made and said
Promise broken and fade
Cut, hurts, and brusied serenade
I am bleeding

Tell me why life is so great
I don't understand, but rather to be dead
Its better done than said....
I'd rather be....
DEAD...

Broken Window

The time we use to laugh and play
Almost every night and day
Cheerful voices everyday
Happiness completes everything I have to say

Standing on the ground we used to play
Alone here almost every night and day
Shouts, pain and tears everyday
Picture and flashback completes everything I have to say

This was once a beautiful house
This is the place I used to keep my pet mouse
This was once my resting place
The place full of memories

As I stand outside
Looking through the broken window
Building up my sorrow
Missing joy is something you can never borrow

I have lost something that starts with 'J'
Still can't make up a word to say
I think the next letter is 'O'
Trying to cover my sorrow
I got it, the last letter is 'Y'
Lost something precious and it makes me want to cry.....

My memories stored through this broken window......

Just Down

Well I am sure everyone had this before
Just one extremely down and broken day
A day which you have just absolutely nothing to say
Too weak to play, what a day......

Sometimes, its just plain down
Down to the rough ground
Sometimes, just could not hear you heart pound....
It kinda stopped sometimes.....

Waiting for encouragement to make it pound again
Encouragement to refresh the brain
Take away the extreme pain
Washing away bad memories till its faint....

For Life

Having a sister is like having a best friend for life,
Someone which is always there to help you survive,

Someone to hug you when you are down,
Someone to chat to when you are bored,

Someone for you to joke with
Someone for you to laugh with

Someone which is just there to listen to your problems
Someone to give you advice

Someone there to dry your tears and ask whats wrong
Someone there to bring you a joyful song.....

This are the few things which some people can't have for life.....

Missing Person

I woke up from my dreams,
All too real as it seems,
You were there,
You were someone who cared,

Hugged me when I was down,
Wipe away my frown,
Wipe away my tears,
Dissolve my fears ,
Help me make a joyful sound,
I really love having you around,

I woke up from my dreams
All too real as it seems
You were gone
Couldn't get your phone

My head fell to the ground,
From a distance, some could hear the thud sound,
That was a painful sound,
Tears stream down my face,
Fear bruised my face,
I miss having you around,

Now in reality its clear,
I miss my dear sister,
My dear missing person,
In my dreams, you are my Missing Person....

Afraid......

When I cry, there is a reason
When I weep, there is a reason
When I am down, there is a reason
When I am worried, there is a reason

Just to let you know,
You can't stop all this from happening to me,
Its a natural thing,
God gave you to me, so how can I just let it be?

I am worried about your health,
But never worried about your wealth,
To me, your health comes first,
Sometimes worried about it, till my head nearly burst

You are someone precious,
Not and never something precious.....

When I am down to the ground,
You are there to pick me up, give me a cheer,
When I cry,
There is always a shoulder for me to cry on,

Wanted to have a sister since I was born,
Most of my hopes torn,
Sometimes I could be a fuss,
A whole lot of problems left in the dust

I am afraid,
Afraid of losing you,
This is really true,
I am just afraid.....

With All I Am

Hello there, this is me
I don't really know much about me
Just wanting all I could ever be
But, failure is all I see

I walk but fall
Run but hit the wall
I am locked in this small hall
Tossed around like a ball

Whatever seem big to me
To others, they seem small
With all I am
Picking myself up in front of them

With all I am
I won't weep or cry
Just hold on till time pass by
Don't worry, I won't die....

I will see you soon, with all I am.....

Listen To Me

Hey God, are you there?
Do you even care?
Sometimes I really think its not fair.....
What are you doing?

Don't just stare!!
Help me....
Listen to me.....
This are my prayers

Well, I wish I could just close my eyes and trust you
That is sometimes all I want to do
When I feel blue
When I am lost without a clue.....

Can't seem to except what is true
I just want you to listen...
Listen well...
Hope this rings a bell...

Thank You For Loving Me

Sometimes there are word which just to hard to express
I still can't, even if I did my best
Living everyday of my life as if they were my last
Time is something that just passes so fast

This is something I want you to know
I will put my pride and head down to bow

Thank you for loving me
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You are all I wanted to be
Thank you for loving me

You were a part of me
When my hope were down to its knees
Thank you for picking me up
Giving my heart a gentle rub

When I fall into my sea of despair
You were there to part it, just to save me.....
When my heart shattered
You were there to pick the pieces up

You are my whole lot of encouragement
When I couldn't fly
Thought that best if I could die
You gave me wings....

I have nothing to give in return
All I've got to give to you
Are all I have, this five word tonight
Thank you for loving me.....

The Reason

I am not and never a perfect person
I was made with errors even when the Earth turned
Scars on me body which burned
Nope!! Still no lesson learned

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

No matter how scared
No matter how pain
No matter how stressful
Nothing will ever stop me from holding on

I will always keep this bond
Tell me I am wrong
Torture me for long
I will take all of that and still stand tall in front of you

I won't fight back
I will take that smack
Go ahead, give me a whack
Give my heart and head a great big crack

After all you have done
Nope!! I won't run
I can take more hurt than you ever can bring
So I will continue to stand in this round ring

I will never give up something so precious so easily
Well, thats just me.......

Empty boat

Come come!! Hop on
Let's go see the sunset
Back to the place where we met

We laughed in the boat
We chatted till late
Looking at the sun round and red

Where are you now?
I am all alone.....
I am alone in my empty boat

I used to have someone here
I used to smile
Please come back for a ride

Come, sit by my side
I will row down the lake and back
I will bring you back

I have waited so long for someone
Now, I will row my boat
Row down the lake, but......

I will never come back......

He Ran to Me

He was great
He was mighty
He was a mighty conquerer
But He ran

The only time He ran
I saw God ran
Not from trouble and problem
But to trouble and problem

This is the only time I saw Him ran
He ran to me
Hugged me to his chest
Told me, I could close my eyes and rest

When I left Him, the day when I left home
I knew I hurt Him so badly
I had broken His heart....
Took away my part....

I met Him in my dreams
Wonder and compassion all it seems
His bright face beams

One night, I returned
With my face partly burned
All my prides burned
My hopes burned

The only time I will ever see him run.....

He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Looked in my face
Wiped the painful tears from my eyes

Looked at me and said, " Son, do you know I still love you? "
He has been waiting for me to return
He has been waiting for this day......
His hug, word and forgiveness healed me......

Tears & Fears

I live by tears
I heal by tears
I cover my fears
Long over the years

Tears flow into the wounds
Wounds healed by tears
Warm small drop of tears
Healing takes long years

A sun setting far over the horizon
A new life is born
Lies have been torn
Truth is worn

Fear has come
Fear is what it have become
A tear drips from my cheek
Truth and comfort is all I seek

Soon, it will make me weak......

Made with Errors

I am a little boy
Well, small like a fragile toy
Sometimes I may not function properly
I think I will malfunction early

Despite all this problems and errors
I really hope you except me
No matter how ugly I look
No matter how faulty I am......

I know you are mad
I cant blame you for being mad
I am so sorry I am not perfect
Sometimes, I cant even face the fact

I am made with errors
Like a cracked vase
Just simply out of place
Sometimes, I want to just hide my face

Please take me in.......
I will never want to go back to the bin.....

Crawling

I know I was a fool
I was wrong to let go of you
I thought I was going to be something new
I forgotten that chances are few

But, here I am
Waiting and kneeling at your front door
My heart all crushed on the floor
I really can't take this anymore

Now I am crawling back to you
My hand and knees are bruised
I am begging for a second chance
Well you accept me?

I was running from the truth
Cause, sometimes I have nothing to proof
May be its time we move on
But, without you, how can I go on........

Wishing Star

Last night a saw a wishing star
Guess what's my wish from a far
Well, its quite simple
My wish is to be where you are

Sometimes I my days may be lonely
Sometimes I wish my day would be lovely
Sometimes I may feel alone and down
Sometimes I really wish you are around

Some may have doubt in the wishing star
But may be I believed, thats why it worked for me
Now I treasure every star that passes by
Sometimes I may even cry

I wished for a best friend
And now, He gave me one
Now every wishing star I see, I will shut my eyes tight and begin my wish......

Missing You

Looking at the clock
Waiting and counting the minutes
Happiness which is sometimes not there
Sometimes, loneliness is all I have to bare

I want someone to share
I want someone to care
I want someone to always be there

My tears role down my cheek
Thinking how I have been affected by the pass
I really hope that all this troubles won't last

Thank God for you
Without you, I won't know what to do
Well, I just want to say, I miss you......

Wounds

Wounds from the past
Wounds that sometimes last
Well, sometime you wish that it would heal fast

Sometimes wounds is as pain as a scorched and torn skin
Wounds that water and bleed
Wounds that were created by others

When I hugged you and cry
My wounds were beginning to heal
The pain subsiding thats all I can feel

I felt secure and comforted by you
May be its because I trust you
Well this is all too true

Tears that ran down my cheeks
Love and care which is all I seek
Now I can have them every week

Hugs that heal wounds
Hugs that repair bonds
Tears that fill up the holes
Soon making me bold

You have brought happiness into my life
Without you, it would be hard to survive
I really thank God for bringing you into my life
Your love and care sometimes just make me want to cry
Cry and cry, because it heals my wounds, this is what money can't buy.......

The Plan for One

Well, God has plans. Whatever happens in this life is kinda part of God's plans. Sometimes, we humans either don't understand or totally didn't take note of it. God is sometimes humorous, He is the One specialized in taking the good from the evil to design and form His plans for us.
God has plans to build us up and not to destroy us. To give us hope and not to tear us down. Not all His plans are guaranteed good for us. But its for our own good, some plans may hurt us in the process but look at the outcome not the process, tho it may sometimes hurt badly. A jigsaw puzzle itself has no meaning, but if it is fitted perfectly in the group of puzzles, the you will see the picture........
God send His son to earth, it was not the kind of life Jesus had intended to have. But due to His Father's plans, He was allowed to be hurt by mankind, but the outcome was awesome.....
Here are also somethings I learned about trust. If someone is able to cry in front of you, that person has put his or her full trust in you. Tears indirectly represent trust in a kind of way. Not anyone is able to cry in front of anyone due to ego, embarrassment and trust. Having a person to comfort you when you are sad or when even you are crying is the best thing anyone could ever have....

Jeremiah 29

11 For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
12 In those days when you pray, I will listen.
13 If you look for me in earnest, you will find me when you seek me.
14 I will be found by you," says the LORD. "I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and bring you home again to your own land."

Happiness

Hey Cheche
How are you?
Today, where are you heading to?
Can I go with you?

I feel proud when I call you Cheche
When I cried
I hugged you like my bear
I don't want to say goodbye

When I say I don't miss you
That is a lie
You have brought happiness into me
The all new and very happy me

When you smile, there is joy
Your smile removes all my worries and fears
I will treasure you like a kid and his toy
Well, I will always be your little boy

I love you to pamper me
Hug me,
Comfort me,
Care for me,
And tell me that everything is alright throughout the night
No matter what happens, you will always be my dearest sister.......

Broken Valentine

I am here sitting in the room
Wondering what will happen soon
Its 5 minutes to midnight
The Valentine's night

I will spend my Valentine in home
All by myself, all alone
Heart aches like a broken bone
Nah, nobody's going to call my phone

I bought flowers
Small tiny roses
I held them in my hand waiting to give someone
Now, the thorns pricked me one by one

No matter how pain
It will be alright after I give it to you
Please return
Everyday waiting is like a heart being burn

Everything is alright,
I will just wait and hold on tight
Going through sleepless nights
With my feelings I fight
Blood trickled down the side.....

Its alright.........

Truth & Trust

Here is the truth
Well, I can't show any proof
But you have my word
Don't worry, they won't bring anymore hurt

Please listen to me cause, its you I trust
Destroy my past and move forward is a must
Building my trust won't be fast

Only to you will I give my trust
Only to you will I let out my truth
Somethings hidden are now visible
Having you here is really incredible

The truth is really inevitable
Thank God for you......
Now you have my truth and my trust
I will never return to the past.....

I am really sorry about what have happen. I really won't every doubt and go back to what I have left behind........ Please trust me, I am really sorry.

Gods Gift.....

Here is something I will never let go
This is all I want you to know
God send you to me
So I will just let it be

I will treasure you forever
Let go? Nope never......
I am sorry to hurt you sometimes
Hurting you with my stupid poems and rhymes

Thanks for loving and caring
Thanks for all the happiness you bring
Sometimes my happiness makes me want to sing

I am the happiest person when you tend to my wounds
I am the happiest when I am comforted by your hug
I will hang on to you like a bug, stuck to you forever
My tears you wipe away
You brighten my day

Hey che, you are my dearest
So far the best
Sometimes I am really afraid of losing you
I don't know, may be this is what nerd brains do.......

But I just want to let you know, You are my sister, there is nothing better
Please forgive me if I had hurt you in any way, I will be always here to make your day
This is all I have to say
I give you my word, I will never let go.......This you have to know.......

A Toy

I was made to be played
I was made to be tossed around
Thrown to the ground
Don't worry, my mouth won't even make a sound

I was the special toy you adored
You played with me when you were bored
I was really the one you adored

With your tender love and care
I felt great, even I can't express
But making you happy?
I will do my best
I was new, Newer than the rest

Suddenly a new toy came by
Much better than me
And all I can ever be

There I go, back to the shelf
Waiting all by myself
I was waiting.........

Play with me, I begged
But you couldn't hear cause I am a toy
A toy in a form of a boy

Layers of dust covered me.....
Amazingly, A tear drop emerge from my eyes
Trickled down my face
At a slow and steady pace

Life chose me, chose me to make another person happy
When night falls,
I will be gone far beyond the walls

My job is done
You had your fun
Now its my turn to run........

My Replacement

Look at me
What do you see?
Soon I will be free

Is this my life?
I hold on to you and strive
Encourage you in your life
Bring you up when you are down

Now, I seem to have expire
Now, someone new comes into the picture
I am ready to let you go
Let your life flow

If that person is better than me
If he makes you smile more than me
Hop on and hold on
Push me aside, don't worry I wont see
I will quickly flee

All I wanted you to be
I will never be able to see
If you are disappointed or sad
Or if you shed a tear
Call me up

I will come back to comfort you
And be your backup
My job is to cheer you up
I will be your spare toy........

Walk Forward

Walk forward
Look ahead
Try to think straight
Failure is never mend to be your fate
When you reach the gates
He will reward you just like he said
Your handwork will be well paid

Stay bold with courage
He is whatever He wanted you to be
Now let’s see,
Look back in life and just trust me.
Please trust me and you will see

Hold on and never let go
I know you are suffering, but people don’t know
Don’t worry, you will reap what you sow
Learn how to treasure your life
Some people can’t even survive

Your joy, happiness and success will take you a long way
God will make success your toy
I will be there to make your day
And to listen to what you have to say

I am your brother
I really hope there is no other
What people say, I will never bother

When you are feeling blue
I know just the right thing to do
I am here to make you happy, that’s my job
Here to make you smile and fade away your sobs.

All I want is your love and care
Care for me as my day passes,
As my life passes,

I have prayed for a sister like you…….
So, I will always be here to encourage you……….
This is what I was born to do…………

Hands

Hands that felt cold,
Hands that are bold,
Hands that I long to hold,

Down the lifeline,
A story being told,
A really sweet story unfolds,

Where ever you may be,
What ever you may say,
I will still treasure you like gold,

Some may bring you down,
Some may offer you a crown,
But listen,

When ever you are down,
I will always be around,
I will remove that frown.......
I will be your standing ground,

For you to patter on,
For you to jump on,
For you to step on,

What ever it is, I will never bring you down.......
One day, you will wear that crown....

Shine

Hey sun, where are you?
Come sing to me
Cause I really miss you.

Sometimes its true,
You sometimes get very hot and you make people blue.....
But sometimes, we really miss you.....

We are proud to have you shining down on us,
You bring joy at times,
And sometimes sorrow,

With you around,
We have hope for tomorrow.

Breaking the Habit

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

Glass Field

When you were small,
We had the privilege of running on fields of grass,

When we grow older,
The wonderful fields of grass turns to glass,

Well, thats not all,
There is no more grass to break our fall,
Now its glass.......

We don't have any choice but to walk on,
Feel our skin being torn,
A new life is reborn,

Many people don't understand,
So please take my hand,
I am afraid,
Not of being dead,
But else.....being betrayed.

Worries

Worries cuts like a knife,
Worries sometimes destroys life,

Looking back through our life....... thinking, how can we survive,
Just want to get away and have a dive.

Sometimes we have to put away the doubts in life,
The things we do gives us a new hope in life.

Now lets think back,
Think back into our past life..........
Step by step back in time,

When you are back in time,
think about this rhyme,
change....and everything will be fine.......