Afraid......

When I cry, there is a reason
When I weep, there is a reason
When I am down, there is a reason
When I am worried, there is a reason

Just to let you know,
You can't stop all this from happening to me,
Its a natural thing,
God gave you to me, so how can I just let it be?

I am worried about your health,
But never worried about your wealth,
To me, your health comes first,
Sometimes worried about it, till my head nearly burst

You are someone precious,
Not and never something precious.....

When I am down to the ground,
You are there to pick me up, give me a cheer,
When I cry,
There is always a shoulder for me to cry on,

Wanted to have a sister since I was born,
Most of my hopes torn,
Sometimes I could be a fuss,
A whole lot of problems left in the dust

I am afraid,
Afraid of losing you,
This is really true,
I am just afraid.....

With All I Am

Hello there, this is me
I don't really know much about me
Just wanting all I could ever be
But, failure is all I see

I walk but fall
Run but hit the wall
I am locked in this small hall
Tossed around like a ball

Whatever seem big to me
To others, they seem small
With all I am
Picking myself up in front of them

With all I am
I won't weep or cry
Just hold on till time pass by
Don't worry, I won't die....

I will see you soon, with all I am.....

Listen To Me

Hey God, are you there?
Do you even care?
Sometimes I really think its not fair.....
What are you doing?

Don't just stare!!
Help me....
Listen to me.....
This are my prayers

Well, I wish I could just close my eyes and trust you
That is sometimes all I want to do
When I feel blue
When I am lost without a clue.....

Can't seem to except what is true
I just want you to listen...
Listen well...
Hope this rings a bell...

Thank You For Loving Me

Sometimes there are word which just to hard to express
I still can't, even if I did my best
Living everyday of my life as if they were my last
Time is something that just passes so fast

This is something I want you to know
I will put my pride and head down to bow

Thank you for loving me
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You are all I wanted to be
Thank you for loving me

You were a part of me
When my hope were down to its knees
Thank you for picking me up
Giving my heart a gentle rub

When I fall into my sea of despair
You were there to part it, just to save me.....
When my heart shattered
You were there to pick the pieces up

You are my whole lot of encouragement
When I couldn't fly
Thought that best if I could die
You gave me wings....

I have nothing to give in return
All I've got to give to you
Are all I have, this five word tonight
Thank you for loving me.....

The Reason

I am not and never a perfect person
I was made with errors even when the Earth turned
Scars on me body which burned
Nope!! Still no lesson learned

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

No matter how scared
No matter how pain
No matter how stressful
Nothing will ever stop me from holding on

I will always keep this bond
Tell me I am wrong
Torture me for long
I will take all of that and still stand tall in front of you

I won't fight back
I will take that smack
Go ahead, give me a whack
Give my heart and head a great big crack

After all you have done
Nope!! I won't run
I can take more hurt than you ever can bring
So I will continue to stand in this round ring

I will never give up something so precious so easily
Well, thats just me.......

Empty boat

Come come!! Hop on
Let's go see the sunset
Back to the place where we met

We laughed in the boat
We chatted till late
Looking at the sun round and red

Where are you now?
I am all alone.....
I am alone in my empty boat

I used to have someone here
I used to smile
Please come back for a ride

Come, sit by my side
I will row down the lake and back
I will bring you back

I have waited so long for someone
Now, I will row my boat
Row down the lake, but......

I will never come back......

He Ran to Me

He was great
He was mighty
He was a mighty conquerer
But He ran

The only time He ran
I saw God ran
Not from trouble and problem
But to trouble and problem

This is the only time I saw Him ran
He ran to me
Hugged me to his chest
Told me, I could close my eyes and rest

When I left Him, the day when I left home
I knew I hurt Him so badly
I had broken His heart....
Took away my part....

I met Him in my dreams
Wonder and compassion all it seems
His bright face beams

One night, I returned
With my face partly burned
All my prides burned
My hopes burned

The only time I will ever see him run.....

He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest
Looked in my face
Wiped the painful tears from my eyes

Looked at me and said, " Son, do you know I still love you? "
He has been waiting for me to return
He has been waiting for this day......
His hug, word and forgiveness healed me......

Tears & Fears

I live by tears
I heal by tears
I cover my fears
Long over the years

Tears flow into the wounds
Wounds healed by tears
Warm small drop of tears
Healing takes long years

A sun setting far over the horizon
A new life is born
Lies have been torn
Truth is worn

Fear has come
Fear is what it have become
A tear drips from my cheek
Truth and comfort is all I seek

Soon, it will make me weak......

Made with Errors

I am a little boy
Well, small like a fragile toy
Sometimes I may not function properly
I think I will malfunction early

Despite all this problems and errors
I really hope you except me
No matter how ugly I look
No matter how faulty I am......

I know you are mad
I cant blame you for being mad
I am so sorry I am not perfect
Sometimes, I cant even face the fact

I am made with errors
Like a cracked vase
Just simply out of place
Sometimes, I want to just hide my face

Please take me in.......
I will never want to go back to the bin.....

Crawling

I know I was a fool
I was wrong to let go of you
I thought I was going to be something new
I forgotten that chances are few

But, here I am
Waiting and kneeling at your front door
My heart all crushed on the floor
I really can't take this anymore

Now I am crawling back to you
My hand and knees are bruised
I am begging for a second chance
Well you accept me?

I was running from the truth
Cause, sometimes I have nothing to proof
May be its time we move on
But, without you, how can I go on........

Wishing Star

Last night a saw a wishing star
Guess what's my wish from a far
Well, its quite simple
My wish is to be where you are

Sometimes I my days may be lonely
Sometimes I wish my day would be lovely
Sometimes I may feel alone and down
Sometimes I really wish you are around

Some may have doubt in the wishing star
But may be I believed, thats why it worked for me
Now I treasure every star that passes by
Sometimes I may even cry

I wished for a best friend
And now, He gave me one
Now every wishing star I see, I will shut my eyes tight and begin my wish......

Missing You

Looking at the clock
Waiting and counting the minutes
Happiness which is sometimes not there
Sometimes, loneliness is all I have to bare

I want someone to share
I want someone to care
I want someone to always be there

My tears role down my cheek
Thinking how I have been affected by the pass
I really hope that all this troubles won't last

Thank God for you
Without you, I won't know what to do
Well, I just want to say, I miss you......

Wounds

Wounds from the past
Wounds that sometimes last
Well, sometime you wish that it would heal fast

Sometimes wounds is as pain as a scorched and torn skin
Wounds that water and bleed
Wounds that were created by others

When I hugged you and cry
My wounds were beginning to heal
The pain subsiding thats all I can feel

I felt secure and comforted by you
May be its because I trust you
Well this is all too true

Tears that ran down my cheeks
Love and care which is all I seek
Now I can have them every week

Hugs that heal wounds
Hugs that repair bonds
Tears that fill up the holes
Soon making me bold

You have brought happiness into my life
Without you, it would be hard to survive
I really thank God for bringing you into my life
Your love and care sometimes just make me want to cry
Cry and cry, because it heals my wounds, this is what money can't buy.......

The Plan for One

Well, God has plans. Whatever happens in this life is kinda part of God's plans. Sometimes, we humans either don't understand or totally didn't take note of it. God is sometimes humorous, He is the One specialized in taking the good from the evil to design and form His plans for us.
God has plans to build us up and not to destroy us. To give us hope and not to tear us down. Not all His plans are guaranteed good for us. But its for our own good, some plans may hurt us in the process but look at the outcome not the process, tho it may sometimes hurt badly. A jigsaw puzzle itself has no meaning, but if it is fitted perfectly in the group of puzzles, the you will see the picture........
God send His son to earth, it was not the kind of life Jesus had intended to have. But due to His Father's plans, He was allowed to be hurt by mankind, but the outcome was awesome.....
Here are also somethings I learned about trust. If someone is able to cry in front of you, that person has put his or her full trust in you. Tears indirectly represent trust in a kind of way. Not anyone is able to cry in front of anyone due to ego, embarrassment and trust. Having a person to comfort you when you are sad or when even you are crying is the best thing anyone could ever have....

Jeremiah 29

11 For I know the plans I have for you," says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
12 In those days when you pray, I will listen.
13 If you look for me in earnest, you will find me when you seek me.
14 I will be found by you," says the LORD. "I will end your captivity and restore your fortunes. I will gather you out of the nations where I sent you and bring you home again to your own land."

Happiness

Hey Cheche
How are you?
Today, where are you heading to?
Can I go with you?

I feel proud when I call you Cheche
When I cried
I hugged you like my bear
I don't want to say goodbye

When I say I don't miss you
That is a lie
You have brought happiness into me
The all new and very happy me

When you smile, there is joy
Your smile removes all my worries and fears
I will treasure you like a kid and his toy
Well, I will always be your little boy

I love you to pamper me
Hug me,
Comfort me,
Care for me,
And tell me that everything is alright throughout the night
No matter what happens, you will always be my dearest sister.......

Broken Valentine

I am here sitting in the room
Wondering what will happen soon
Its 5 minutes to midnight
The Valentine's night

I will spend my Valentine in home
All by myself, all alone
Heart aches like a broken bone
Nah, nobody's going to call my phone

I bought flowers
Small tiny roses
I held them in my hand waiting to give someone
Now, the thorns pricked me one by one

No matter how pain
It will be alright after I give it to you
Please return
Everyday waiting is like a heart being burn

Everything is alright,
I will just wait and hold on tight
Going through sleepless nights
With my feelings I fight
Blood trickled down the side.....

Its alright.........

Truth & Trust

Here is the truth
Well, I can't show any proof
But you have my word
Don't worry, they won't bring anymore hurt

Please listen to me cause, its you I trust
Destroy my past and move forward is a must
Building my trust won't be fast

Only to you will I give my trust
Only to you will I let out my truth
Somethings hidden are now visible
Having you here is really incredible

The truth is really inevitable
Thank God for you......
Now you have my truth and my trust
I will never return to the past.....

I am really sorry about what have happen. I really won't every doubt and go back to what I have left behind........ Please trust me, I am really sorry.

Gods Gift.....

Here is something I will never let go
This is all I want you to know
God send you to me
So I will just let it be

I will treasure you forever
Let go? Nope never......
I am sorry to hurt you sometimes
Hurting you with my stupid poems and rhymes

Thanks for loving and caring
Thanks for all the happiness you bring
Sometimes my happiness makes me want to sing

I am the happiest person when you tend to my wounds
I am the happiest when I am comforted by your hug
I will hang on to you like a bug, stuck to you forever
My tears you wipe away
You brighten my day

Hey che, you are my dearest
So far the best
Sometimes I am really afraid of losing you
I don't know, may be this is what nerd brains do.......

But I just want to let you know, You are my sister, there is nothing better
Please forgive me if I had hurt you in any way, I will be always here to make your day
This is all I have to say
I give you my word, I will never let go.......This you have to know.......

A Toy

I was made to be played
I was made to be tossed around
Thrown to the ground
Don't worry, my mouth won't even make a sound

I was the special toy you adored
You played with me when you were bored
I was really the one you adored

With your tender love and care
I felt great, even I can't express
But making you happy?
I will do my best
I was new, Newer than the rest

Suddenly a new toy came by
Much better than me
And all I can ever be

There I go, back to the shelf
Waiting all by myself
I was waiting.........

Play with me, I begged
But you couldn't hear cause I am a toy
A toy in a form of a boy

Layers of dust covered me.....
Amazingly, A tear drop emerge from my eyes
Trickled down my face
At a slow and steady pace

Life chose me, chose me to make another person happy
When night falls,
I will be gone far beyond the walls

My job is done
You had your fun
Now its my turn to run........

My Replacement

Look at me
What do you see?
Soon I will be free

Is this my life?
I hold on to you and strive
Encourage you in your life
Bring you up when you are down

Now, I seem to have expire
Now, someone new comes into the picture
I am ready to let you go
Let your life flow

If that person is better than me
If he makes you smile more than me
Hop on and hold on
Push me aside, don't worry I wont see
I will quickly flee

All I wanted you to be
I will never be able to see
If you are disappointed or sad
Or if you shed a tear
Call me up

I will come back to comfort you
And be your backup
My job is to cheer you up
I will be your spare toy........