When The Time Comes

Everything has a time, don't they?
When I mine?
My time for me to know the world....
I am here stuck in this shit hole
Cant wait to return home....

Home is where I belong,
Miss everything, It has been so damn long,
Everything I know has changed,
I am not there to see the changes,

I miss my mom, daddy, elder sister, younger sister and brother,
Miss everything I left back there....
Please help me....
I can't wait, I am dying....
Tell me when the time comes....

From Human to Monster

One day, when you look in the mirror
You see a gentle human staring back at you
But behind the mask, there is something you never knew
You had a life.. It was brand new....

Born into this world...
Enjoy the good view...
Adapted to this world...
As you grew....

One day....
When you look into the mirror...
This horrible creature stares back
It gave a smile.... But... the scars....
Looks like a monster from the stars....

The glare ans stare
Made me stand on my hair...
I just knew....
This monster its me... looks new?

I....am....a....monster....
Don't look at me ever again....
Else... your fear will begin...

Tonight I Wanna Cry

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

-keith urban-

Lonely

Hey you... why do you flee?
Are you afraid of me?
What do you think I should be....?
Hiding my horrid me....

Hey you....
Dont stare at me....
Tell me... what do you see?
What do you want be to be?

Hey you.... take a look at me
Alone just like an old tree
Birds they flee
Such horror wen they see me

Humans, they never sit under me
Kick and spit at me
I bleed, although I was a tree....
Take a look inside me
This is all I could ever be

Black

Where are you Black?
Please come back
Please turn and look back
Everything is still black

Trapped in here
Drinking lots of beer
Trying to drown my fear
From the news that I hear

Where are you?
Nothing is clear
Everything around is so blur
Covered in thick black fur

Dust flying around
Avoiding the ground
Fear is running out of bounds
Chased by bloody hounds.....

Emotional Prison

Looking in life
Everyone will strive
Strive and toil just to survive
Trying to build an easy life

Not knowing..... I was one of them
Instead, I build my emotional prison
The total lost of my passion
Wishing for the pain....be gone....

The more I stare, the more they hurt
Letting myself drop into dirt.....
Kept locked up in prison
Waiting for time to turn.....

Watching life burn....
In this emotional prison

Dry Love

Love which came,
Love which left,
Seems like a love theft,
A dear love have left,

Now its dry,
Much after hearing the stabing goodbye,
I will always be waiting for you to come by,

All I know,
That is a lie.... a dry truth...

Well, look at me an see,
Tell me what do you see,
Happiness in me already fled,
Look at me,
I am dry all in me....

Your love is dry,
Dry just like a dead goodbye,
There is nothing good about goodbye,
Go ahead, leave me to die...bye

A Thousand Different Ways

I am sitting here hugging on to my fears
Watching my cold dripping tears
Take me along with you, I am begging please
Time and memories is all I will ever miss

Just watching you smile
Makes good memories worth while
When life comes to a halting pile
A face with a broken smile

Who ever you have been
You are good at it
Bringing life to it
Bringing joy to it

Somehow painful to see me bleed
Sometimes chasing greed
Now fallen to my feet
My own pride and sorrow I meet

A thousand different ways
Many different days
How come to me.....its all same?

Riches

The world today
A place where money and power play
Bringing hard days and creating evil ways
Human control the world

Money makes the world turn
Money also causes people to crash and burn
Money is fun
Sometimes it bring trouble, its time to run

Money kills
Money also heals
Money brings goodness to some
To some, money is a weapon

People are driven by money
A few pieces of valuable paper
Valuable color papers
Sadly....these riches lay at our feet

God counts our deeds
The amount of people we meet
The amount of people.....we made them bleed
Making their lives our planted seed....grow.....

Nautical Twilight

As I look to the skies
The awesome color comforts my eyes
Well...its the Nautical Twilight
The orange purple so bright

I watched from a far
I saw you leaving
To somewhere far
Flying with your mighty wings

I only sailed in a boat
Wishing to catch up
All I could do is float
Watch you disappear into the Nautical Twilight

You went somewhere far.....
You will be fine......
I pray you will be fine....
I am sorry......

A Heavy Burden

Looking from the stars
Please tell me what do you see from a far
I see people carrying burdens
Heavy burdens till they burn into their backs

After being told and I looked up in the mirror
I sorry for being a burden to you
A boundary for you
A great burden to you

Now I am happy that you are free
Well, you don't have to worry about me
When the time come I will flee
In my memories, you will always be with me

Memories which are lock down tight
Memories which remain bright
Memories which I hug goodnight
Your face will be in my memory, still shining bright

Goodbye.......

Waiting

Waiting for a call which never comes,
Waiting for a message which never comes,
Words which contains no feelings,
Words which have no sound,

I was waiting,
I am hurting,
Weird.... I am still thinking,
My eyes stopped blinking,

Years of waiting,
My life finally stopped playing,
The wait that hurt,
The wait that brings thoughts and sadness

The wait that have ended....
No more waiting....

Ignored

I look for you,
I waited for you,
I miss you,
People could see me turn blue,

No, not because of flu,
But of the feeling of missing you,
Can't deny it, its true
I really miss you.

I am here standing at the hall way,
Waiting for you all day,
Thinking and planning of what to say,
When I approach you, you just walked away.

I get ignored everyday....
I guess it will remain this way....

Lonely

I lost....
I loose....
I stumble....
I fall......

I don't get it, why?
Why am I alone......
Why I can't call your phone.....
Its painful, like a broken bone....

What is love?
Love is free
Love flies like a dove
Love is not control....

Why can't I be where you are?
Are you really that far?
Far as in restricted?
Far as in unreachable?

Have you ever tried being robbed?
Robbed of something you treasured so dearly
You are still 18 years old, Its still early
The pain and grief which stabs you

Now I am pushed out
I can see your face, damn proud
There's nowhere to run
I have no place to go

You are missing in my heart.......

"Normally, humans kill with their mind"
- DixoN-

3 Emotions

Letting go a part of me
Its like a blade which cuts right through me
My heart cant stop bleeding
Cant believe the flashback that I am reading

I am going to miss you
All I have is faint memories
I guess I wont see you forever
Someday or may be never.....

Challenges come, I give in
Tough times come, I give in
Looking at the rubbish bin
Can't believe how much shit I am in

I can't bow to you
The image behind the song
The killer behind the creator
The force behind the weak

I stand on my ground
Look at you and frown
You brought hurt & pain
But I guess, what the heck do you gain?

Playing your own game
Polluting your own name
Trying to build your fame
Look in the mirror, how lame.....

I have beat you down the first time
Looking forward to the second time
Cant wait to hear the bell chime
Just the right time

Lost and lonely
Tired and hungry
Walking down....
Looking down.....

Confused by whats around
Scared and afraid to make a sound
Threats all around
My feet is fear bound

I am confused....
Sad, I am bruised
Angry, I am bruised
Confused, end of life.....

Dissapointments

Hate my life....
I wish to die
I wish to cry
I wish to remove the hurts and lies

Sometimes I wish to return to the skies
Say my final goodbye
Believe that my life is all a lie....
Wishing I would just give in and die

Promise made and said
Promise broken and fade
Cut, hurts, and brusied serenade
I am bleeding

Tell me why life is so great
I don't understand, but rather to be dead
Its better done than said....
I'd rather be....
DEAD...

Broken Window

The time we use to laugh and play
Almost every night and day
Cheerful voices everyday
Happiness completes everything I have to say

Standing on the ground we used to play
Alone here almost every night and day
Shouts, pain and tears everyday
Picture and flashback completes everything I have to say

This was once a beautiful house
This is the place I used to keep my pet mouse
This was once my resting place
The place full of memories

As I stand outside
Looking through the broken window
Building up my sorrow
Missing joy is something you can never borrow

I have lost something that starts with 'J'
Still can't make up a word to say
I think the next letter is 'O'
Trying to cover my sorrow
I got it, the last letter is 'Y'
Lost something precious and it makes me want to cry.....

My memories stored through this broken window......

Just Down

Well I am sure everyone had this before
Just one extremely down and broken day
A day which you have just absolutely nothing to say
Too weak to play, what a day......

Sometimes, its just plain down
Down to the rough ground
Sometimes, just could not hear you heart pound....
It kinda stopped sometimes.....

Waiting for encouragement to make it pound again
Encouragement to refresh the brain
Take away the extreme pain
Washing away bad memories till its faint....

For Life

Having a sister is like having a best friend for life,
Someone which is always there to help you survive,

Someone to hug you when you are down,
Someone to chat to when you are bored,

Someone for you to joke with
Someone for you to laugh with

Someone which is just there to listen to your problems
Someone to give you advice

Someone there to dry your tears and ask whats wrong
Someone there to bring you a joyful song.....

This are the few things which some people can't have for life.....

Missing Person

I woke up from my dreams,
All too real as it seems,
You were there,
You were someone who cared,

Hugged me when I was down,
Wipe away my frown,
Wipe away my tears,
Dissolve my fears ,
Help me make a joyful sound,
I really love having you around,

I woke up from my dreams
All too real as it seems
You were gone
Couldn't get your phone

My head fell to the ground,
From a distance, some could hear the thud sound,
That was a painful sound,
Tears stream down my face,
Fear bruised my face,
I miss having you around,

Now in reality its clear,
I miss my dear sister,
My dear missing person,
In my dreams, you are my Missing Person....